At the beginning of this week I was excited to being my student teaching semester and I could not wait to see what was in store for me. However, once I realized that the nights of staying up until 2am with friends, going to taco bell at midnight for no reason and waking up at 11am were over, I began to have a little bit of what I like to call "college is over depression" set in. Realizing that my life now consisted of waking up at 6am and working until almost 5pm, then going home, being too tired to do anything and bed by 10pm was a little hard for me to accept. I was contemplating not ever getting a real job and just working in fast food just so I could have a chance at having a social life. After seriously considering abandoning my dreams for a part time job, I soon got back to my senses and realized that I just needed to get adjusted to this new schedule.
I was a little confused as to why this semester of student teaching was taking such a toll on my energy, I come home everyday ready for bed. Last semester I would teach all day and then leave straight from school to go to drive all the way to Spring Arbor for my own college class. I did this three nights each week, so why am I even more tired now that I essentially have less to do. With a little help from my cooperating teacher, I realized that this is because my body is telling me since I have less to do it is okay just to go home and shut down. Now that I see this, I am working on keeping myself busy in order to function for the rest of the day.
In addition to just understanding how to function as a person, I am beginning to see how I fit into my classroom and what all I can bring to the lives of my students. I really do have a great group of students and I love coming into school each morning. I know that I am there for a purpose and I also know that I want my time in this classroom to be a time of growth for my students and myself. With a lot of focus, preparation and dedication, I know that this will be one great semester!
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